"I Am Living"

About a month ago I was given a key necklace that said BRAVE on it from my beautiful cousin. I'm 23 and was diagnosed with a disability called cerebral palsy at age 1. I've always had challenges and struggled with things that come easy to most. I was never supposed to have kids but recently had my miracle child! A beautiful little girl named Savi. But ever sense I had her I've been very sick and had to undergo my 32nd surgery. I've always found a way to overcome things doctors told me I couldn't and be positive but I was at the worst place I'd ever been emotionally. One of my biggest changes I decided to make when having Savi was to not have anymore surgeries, really accept my disability, who I am & stop always trying to fix myself. So nothing broke my heart more than having to fight so hard to try & get better when this was the first time in my life I decided to be done fighting back with life so much. 

I've never been scared to loose my life until recently. It sounds so weird but this key had a way of helping me through so much. I would look down at it & it reminded me I needed to be brave to make it through all the bad news I kept getting for my little girl. Recently I just gave this key to my mom the women who taught me positivity and to always remember even though I was disabled I could do anything. But then she got bad news her boyfriend has just been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I watched her feel helpless trying to take care of someone very sick. And it popped into my head I needed to be thankful I may not be in the best place but I am living. I felt she needed the key more than I did to help her through, to help her be brave enough for the both of them.