She's everything to me... She's the love of my life, my best friend in the world, my closest confidant and my muse. The only problem is that in the two years we've known each other we've never been together as a couple. And honestly, I don't know if we ever will. There have always been obstacles to that and now one in particular looks damn near insurmountable. I tell myself everything will workout in the end, and I believe it, but obviously no one truly knows what the future holds. What I do know is that the feelings I have for her will never change and no matter what happens, no one will ever be able to replace her in my heart. And I'll always want the best for her.
And I can live with that. But what bothers me is that there's a fragility and sadness about her that simply should not be there. She's an amazing person who's largely blind to her own incredible worth. She always tells me "I don't understand why you love me so much. I'm smart and pretty and nice but there are billions of people out there." I always try to tell her I'm not interested billions of people because as far as I'm concerned she's perfect. Sometimes she even believes me but only sometimes. This has left me looking for a way to show her just how special she truly is.
So last week I decided to give her a "Love" necklace and a "Courage" bracelet. These are two things that I have constantly strived to bring into her life and that I know for certain she's brought into mine. I wanted her to have reminders of how we have made each other better people.
She heard about The Giving Keys from a friend, so when she opened the gift bag and saw the logo on the boxes her face lit up. She told me they were "the best gift ever" as she put on her brand new keys. "I'm never taking them off!" she chimed, smirking and giggling as she told me she was "too selfish" to give away anything so special.
And I'm fine with that because she's special to me and win, lose or draw I'll always be there for her too.