"It's Always Darkest Before the Dawn"
March 2013 •
I thought when I got my key that I would hold on to it for quite a while and really make an impact with it. I knew that it was something I needed (Hope) because I have been having some tough times at home. (Isn't everyone?) I have been married for almost 7 years and found out that my husband had a 'special friend;' they say there's nothing to it and it's simple talking but they talk all.the.time. If they're not talking, they're texting. It's to the point where there is a password on my husband's phone so I can't see what they are saying. Pretty crazy to me. I was raised in a home where this was not acceptable behavior, therefore I would expect it to stop. I've asked, begged, pleaded. It hasn't. So now, I just go on with my life, and for the past few months that I've had my (Hope) key, I've proudly worn it and held on to it.
When I met Tammy, she had two young children, had just moved down to Florida from New York, and she had the cutest little Elvis and Sock-Hop Girl I had ever seen. There was a joy about her and I was so blessed when she decided to be my friend. She's the kind of person who you know will change the world, and she's an amazing Mom. Last year she endured one of the hardest years of her life, and wound up finding herself a newly single Mom with two amazing kids, and putting her life back together piece by piece. She is one of the bravest and strongest ladies I know, who makes sure her kids feel loved and cherished every second. She is a truer than true friend who will show up at your doorstep, put you in her car, and drive you to the beach so you can think and cry, and try to make sense of your own life (yes, that really happened). Everyone deserves to meet a friend like this in their lifetime, and what is sad is few people will. I have been absolutely blessed to know this family. She was the second person I called when my son was diagnosed with epilepsy, and has been there for me throughout his short life and his struggles with autism.
Fast forward to today, she was at my house picking up boxes. She and her children are moving back to New York, where she is from, and she is going to go back to teaching, a job that she certainly is most suited for and absolutely loves. Her students are in for a life changer, she will educate and inspire them to be great people. Her children are going to be in for a treat with great education, four seasons, and family galore!
Today I let go of (Hope) and gave it to my sweet friend who has always given it to me. I am so sad that they will be leaving Florida and will not be right around the corner from me anymore, but I am so thankful that they will be 'Home' and with family, and full of love.
Her story gives me Hope for the future, we truly do not know what it holds for us, but it really is faith, hope, and love that keep us moving. I am so thankful for our friendship and I know I will see you soon my friend. In turn I (Hope) that my own life finds a track, and purpose - even if it's not quickly.
I have seen how you have shone through - and like Florence and the Machine says "It's always darkest before the dawn".
Thank you for being my friend, and for reminding me that Hope lives in all of our hearts. <3