Last November, my boyfriend, Brandon, and I found out I was pregnant. In that moment, I had no clue of what to do or of my future. I felt as if my life was falling into pieces. Little did I know, it was going to fall right back into place. I knew that my child deserved so much more than Brandon and I could offer God showed me the perfect family, who also agreed to an open adoption and visitation.
When I greeted my beautiful birth son, Brennan, I knew I had to cherish each moment. I had no clue when I was going to see him again, after giving him to his wonderful new family. The day had come for me to finally sign the papers and no longer be Brennan’s mom. It was a very rough, emotional day, but with strength from God, my parents, friends, and even the couple, I reminded myself why I was doing this. I was doing this adoption, because I knew it was God’s plan for me to bless a family, start my life over the right way, and give Brennan the life God planned for him to enjoy.
When the new parents came into the hospital room to meet Brennan, I could see their joy and happiness. I had completed their family, and it was such a wonderful experience to see that happen. I was so happy to bless my little bundle with a wonderful home! Reflecting over the past ten months, I now realize that when it looks like all is lost, our God is so good that he gives us another chance in life to use all that we have learned and pour it out into this world.
Because of my pregnancy, I know that I have missed some opportunities in life, but I am not going to let my past get in the way of my future and let it define who I am. Even though this was a tough, yet humbling, experience for me, it was one of the best unexpected events in my life. I will carry this experience in my heart forever.